i decided conditions have to be just right for me to write a blog post. it's a very delicate... 'thing'. and the moment it's off balance i simply can't write - maybe it's a form of writer's block? i don't know what it is but there's a formula that it has to stick to or it's gone before it came. like i have to be happy. really happy. and the words and ideas have to be fresh, because they just don't fit if i try to write hours after the initial thought.
so i haven't written consistently in a long time. not that i haven't been happy. maybe there was something about school and the pressure it was putting on me that every burst of exhilarating freedom allowed had to be expressed in something as solid as a blog post. i'm just talking nonsense now. but it's flowing and it's flowing now so i've got to get it down on
post-school life has been so... weird. exciting, yes. scary, yes. but weird? i didn't expect. how should i have? most of my life i've always known exactly what i was going to do the next year and the next year and the year after that. and i thought i knew what was coming. post-school life meant life without school. simply awesome life, right? but mostly it's just been weird for me. not terrible - because working full-time and having no homework isn't so bad. but i don't know what is going to happen next year. or the next. or the year after that.
on another note, can we talk about how i'm so over stereotypes right now? and i feel like a baby for acting like a victim of stereotyping. but, it's still not cool. and lately i've been reminded of it like a not cool slap in the face. hey stranger that just met me: YOU DON'T KNOW ME. and i don't want your unsolicited advice.
also, stranger, since you didn't know-it's not okay to ask me if and when i'm going to have kids just because i have a ring on it.
p.s. you know that club of crazies-watching-gilmore-
girls-on-netflix? well i'm in that club, and i gift this to all you other crazies out there.